John the Beloved

by Randy Conway

I am confused

My emotions surging

My emotions battling,

Battling for prominent position.

 

I stand alone,

I am surrounded.

I am stone,

I am liquid.

 

Anger rises

A rage builds.

Angry at the soldiers,

Angry at the Religious leaders,

Angry at Jesus,

Angry at God.

 

I never thought it would come to this

To die on a cross betrayed by a kiss.

For three years I walked with You

Your power could have stopped this

If You had wanted to.

 

Hatred comes;

Hating Judas,

Hating the crowd,

Hating the ones who did this,

Hating life.

 

These are not men they are beasts.

Is this the rising of the religious yeast?

How is it these men knew You,

These men heard You,

These men saw You,

These men killed You?

 

Fear continues to creep;

I’m afraid to stay,

I’m afraid to leave,

I’m afraid of the crowd,

I’m afraid of tomorrow.

 

 

 

I meditate upon Your words

In You we will have peace.

This is what I heard.

So hard to understand the things You taught

Standing looking at the cross.

 

Grief overwhelms;

Grieving for loss,

Grieving for the mother,

Grieving with nature,

Grieving with the Father.

 

Sorrow, such sorrow I cannot control

A wave of tears I cannot hold.

My body shakes with convulsion,

The earth shakes with eruption.

The shadow of the cross covers my face,

The shadow of God darkens this place.

 

Joy? Will it ever return?

Can grief turn to joy?

Joy in promises?

Joy in hope?

 

I remember,

“Now is your time of grief,

But I will see you again

And you will rejoice,

And no one will take away your joy” (Jn 16:22)

 

IN the summer of 2019, I was seated in the wine cellar of a walled Medieval town high above the Dordogne Valley of France, not far from Sarlat-la-Canéda, making phone calls, writing reports. I have given this story in other places and it appears as though you’re about to hear it again. Rob Skiba is a name you that you might be familiar with. Though he had made a name for himself as a Nephilim researcher, more recently Rob had taken a dive into the deep end of the pool via flat earth research. The recorded interviews I conducted between he and Rick Hummer, a fellow flat earth investigator and close friend of his, was published while still occupying that very wine cellar. Read all about it. Chicago Is Not a Mirage.

Word quickly spread. Within a few short weeks, dozens of flat earth researchers began accepting my invite for a private interview, if not a series of interviews. From a 17th-century tower built by King Louis XIV, and with a stunning view of the Alps, I sat down with Robbie Davidson, founder of the Flat Earth International Conferences, conducting multiple sessions. While staying in Dumfries, Scotland, David Weiss agreed to take part in the interviews, as did Bob Knodel of Globebusters. There were others. But when I asked the interviewees to discuss the moments that shaped their lives, among the many PSYOPs, false flag attacks, and hoaxes that were discussed, only these men committed commentary to the false 9/11 narrative.

The resulting recordings ballooned into The Unexpected Cosmology, a book which became a website and was even intended as an anthology. And of course, the following discourse was originally a chapter. It was Walt Disney who stated, “Disneyland will never be completed. It will continue to grow as long as there is imagination left in the world.” Those sentiments remain applicable here as well. American Sensationalism: The 9/11 Interviews was always intended to be expanded upon with the inclusion of new researchers. So I’m sorry to say the project became stagnant during the Covid-19 psychodrama. I took a break to tackle other projects. We lost Rob Skiba. Rob offered hours of private conversation regarding his life but we never got around to the big one. 9/11. It was in the cards. Sadly, Bob Knodel died soon afterwards. Voices are being squeezed from an entire generation. Gnosis passes with them.

In the aftermath, the FE community became fractured. People began going their separate ways. Robbie Davidson, among a noted few others who were interviewed for the project, got up and left the movement altogether. It is not my intent to erase his or the contributions of others if only brief. They came, they went, their testimonies remain.

The original vision may have hit roadblocks but it is not forgotten. I expanded this paper a few years later to include testimony from author Pauly Hart, a dear friend of mine. I had wanted to continue that trend every year thereafter but you know how it goes. For the 25th anniversary of the attack I have redirected my efforts to its first large scale expansion, including Andrew Hoy and Darrin Geisinger into the mix. Perhaps others will lend their experiences to the recorder in time.

The following is their report.

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