MARY’S SONG

by Randy Conway

With a mother’s eyes I beheld You,

With a mother’s arms I held You,

With a mother’s heart I loved You

With a mother’s soul I died with You.

 

I nursed You, I dressed You

I held Your hand when You were afraid.

I fed You, I taught You

I kissed You when in bed You lay.

 

With a mother’s love I watched while You grew

But a distant shadow lingered and I knew

 

Although it has been long since it was spoken

My mother’s heart would soon be broken.

The prophet’s words sometimes I still hear

I often wonder if the time is near.

 

I was not prepared for what I would see

As the shadow of the cross fell on me.

I could not look and could not look away

How long on this cross must you stay?

 

I wished I hadn’t asked You to turn water into wine

I look at You, the fault is mine.

My heart is pierced I cannot bear the pain

I long for days of joy again.

 

When the prophet said “You would be rejected”

I didn’t know that meant detested.

I hold the cross in a tight embrace

Longing as a mother to take your place.

 

I remember how I praised the Lord, rejoiced in God my Savior

I remember how my heart swelled when I was in the pains of labor

That pain dwindles and cannot compare

With the pain I felt while standing there.

 

I hang on every word You speak, I die with every groan

It seems as if, no one else exists, I was standing there alone.

The price for redemption seems too large for me

I could feel the thorns, the nails, the tree.

 

 

I lost control, my emotions surged, as I stood there shuddering

My companions’ efforts of comfort were but obscure mutterings

I cried out to God, I longed to die

But it was you who died, not I.

 

I don’t remember eating, I don’t remember sleeping,

All time was lost

Whether dreaming or awake, in every shadow in every place

Every moment I see the cross.

 

Where is the God to whom I sang?

“Oh how I praise the Lord.

How I rejoice in God my Savior!

For He took notice of His lowly servant girl,

And now generation after generation will call me blessed.

For He, is the Mighty One, is holy,

And He has done great things for me.

His mercy goes on from generation to generation,

To all who fear Him.

His mighty arm does tremendous things!

How He scatters the proud and haughty ones!

He has taken princes from there thrones

And exalted the lowly.” Luke 1:46-52

 

Has He now abandoned me? Does He know that I am lost?

Haunted by images of my Son, His pain, His cross.

Then word comes that erases all my pain,

The word has come Jesus lives again.

 

Forgive me that I ever doubted Lord

I knew the promise of Your Word

No other mother ever knew such grief

No other God could grant relief.

 

Old memories replace the recent ones

I reminisce about my Son

With a mother’s eyes I beheld You,

With a mother’s arms I held You,

With a mother’s heart I love You.

A mother’s soul I give to you.

 

By Randy Conway

IN the summer of 2019, I was seated in the wine cellar of a walled Medieval town high above the Dordogne Valley of France, not far from Sarlat-la-Canéda, making phone calls, writing reports. I have given this story in other places and it appears as though you’re about to hear it again. Rob Skiba is a name you that you might be familiar with. Though he had made a name for himself as a Nephilim researcher, more recently Rob had taken a dive into the deep end of the pool via flat earth research. The recorded interviews I conducted between he and Rick Hummer, a fellow flat earth investigator and close friend of his, was published while still occupying that very wine cellar. Read all about it. Chicago Is Not a Mirage.

Word quickly spread. Within a few short weeks, dozens of flat earth researchers began accepting my invite for a private interview, if not a series of interviews. From a 17th-century tower built by King Louis XIV, and with a stunning view of the Alps, I sat down with Robbie Davidson, founder of the Flat Earth International Conferences, conducting multiple sessions. While staying in Dumfries, Scotland, David Weiss agreed to take part in the interviews, as did Bob Knodel of Globebusters. There were others. But when I asked the interviewees to discuss the moments that shaped their lives, among the many PSYOPs, false flag attacks, and hoaxes that were discussed, only these men committed commentary to the false 9/11 narrative.

The resulting recordings ballooned into The Unexpected Cosmology, a book which became a website and was even intended as an anthology. And of course, the following discourse was originally a chapter. It was Walt Disney who stated, “Disneyland will never be completed. It will continue to grow as long as there is imagination left in the world.” Those sentiments remain applicable here as well. American Sensationalism: The 9/11 Interviews was always intended to be expanded upon with the inclusion of new researchers. So I’m sorry to say the project became stagnant during the Covid-19 psychodrama. I took a break to tackle other projects. We lost Rob Skiba. Rob offered hours of private conversation regarding his life but we never got around to the big one. 9/11. It was in the cards. Sadly, Bob Knodel died soon afterwards. Voices are being squeezed from an entire generation. Gnosis passes with them.

In the aftermath, the FE community became fractured. People began going their separate ways. Robbie Davidson, among a noted few others who were interviewed for the project, got up and left the movement altogether. It is not my intent to erase his or the contributions of others if only brief. They came, they went, their testimonies remain.

The original vision may have hit roadblocks but it is not forgotten. I expanded this paper a few years later to include testimony from author Pauly Hart, a dear friend of mine. I had wanted to continue that trend every year thereafter but you know how it goes. For the 25th anniversary of the attack I have redirected my efforts to its first large scale expansion, including Andrew Hoy and Darrin Geisinger into the mix. Perhaps others will lend their experiences to the recorder in time.

The following is their report.

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