It’s always amazing when Yah answers prayer in those little ways, just enough to let you know he is gently guiding and leading and taking care of you. Such was the case this past week, when Noel asked if I would provide some music for his Unexpected Cosmology endeavors. I’ve been looking for an outlet to share the music that Yah puts on my heart for some time now. My history with sharing music is so spotty…I’ve had to learn to take it or leave it, so that it doesn’t become an idol in my heart. During certain times in my life it was hardly even existent. I could really dream up lots of amazing ideas and ways to share and promote it but over the past few years especially, I decided to wait on the Father’s timing and will, and I refused to try to insert myself into anything by my own will, you know, the frustration of trying to make things happen. It’s never worth the effort. Unless Yahuah builds the house.
I’m quite alone here in my own pursuit of truth, as I’m sure many of you are as well. I imagined this journey would look much different. I imagined it would be slightly less maddening and that perhaps there would be some way I could share what I’m learning with the world and with those around me. Sadly, it often only seems to result in conflict and heartbreak. But music, especially songs that are almost purely scripture are hard to argue with, and I’ve come to find that one of the reasons I’ve been blessed with musical talent is so that I would have some way to share truth peacefully, to share his word, to share the heart of the Father with the world, or at least with whoever is willing to listen. I’ve never had anyone quarrel with me about a song…not yet anyway. Although nothing would surprise me.
A few days ago, I had the house to myself for a few hours and I was strongly feeling led to record this song—my most recently written one—and share it on my Facebook profile. I sensed there was a reason for the timing of that, but I wasn’t sure what it was. The next day was the day Noel asked if I would consider sharing through this platform. Little did he know, this opportunity is Yah’s way of giving me strength to endure in a time of desperate struggle, and I’m sure that’s not the only purpose for it. Many of the songs I write are just scripture put to music, but this one is just my heart laid bare and it speaks to my commitment to walking this path, to letting him go before me and to always giving him the glory, honor and praise in everything. I hope you can relate and I pray you are blessed by it.
Here are the lyrics.
I will put my trust in you, no matter what they say.
I will stand on all your promises, and I won’t be afraid.
I will put my trust in you even when the road is hard.
For the way that leads to life is narrow and the way to death is wide.
And I will praise you. I will praise you. (repeat)
I will put my faith in you, every word you say is true.
And you lead me on the path to blessing, with a heart that is renewed.
I will put my faith in you, there is power in your name.
Every single word you speak, oh it won’t bring me to shame.
And I will worship you. I will worship you. (repeat)
I will put my hope in you, in your resurrection power.
Because of you there’s hope for me to be saved from that hour.
I will put my hope in you, I am sealed with your spirit.
I’m a child of Yah and I’m set apart, and I want the world to hear it.
And I will follow you. I will follow you. (repeat)
Halleluyah, Halleluyah (repeat)
I’m a stay/work-at-home wife and mother of 3 blessings. In my free time, I enjoy spending time in nature, gardening, camping, seeking truth, being with my family and of course, writing music.